11 pm Makati City, Philippines
Mood: Ornery and ready to fight a burglar with a rolling pin just to de-stress!
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Hell and damnation..Fire and Brimstone, Roses and Prickly Thorns.
I am torn between elation and despair.!!
Ok, so its partially my fault....ok, its all my fault. So what? Doesn't solve the dilemna.
But still.... *wails* I thought a trip to the US won't push thru because of cost-cutting from our company and some other stuff. I was thinking our team meeting also would not push through..so when my boss said last August that I was to cross my fingers so that if ever, F2F meeting or not, I could still go to the US this November 2008 for some other matters, I certainly didn't cross my fingers...I wanted the trip to be next year...next year!...Lady Fate and Lady Destiny, do you hear me?? Listen to me!
Why? don't ask..I won't tell, suffice to say I feel I am not ready...double drat and triple drat!
I have less than a month to prepare for something which usually takes 4 months! I wasn't interested in pursuing it anymore, I thought I could try other interests, and basically I thought even if I got the chance, in the long run in my current company its not as if it translates to big bucks. Why oh why did I get a call which would send other people into a swoon..of happiness but weirdly makes me want to drown myself in a bucket of brandy?
In my case, although I try to think positively, it only means I will now have 2 hours of sleep everyday if ever I hope catch up to compensate for my lack of preparedness and time...and there are so many other things I have to do too...*sobs* and its not even sure...and I have to do it all by myself...*sigh*
Can somebody find me my twin? clone me perhaps? provide me with another brain? and extra hands too while you are at it....
Sorry, I just needed to vent...
I don't feel like writing this down in my diary because I am growling and I am hungry and I feel like writing it down straight here with my fingers flying over the keyboard will lessen the stress. So there...call me an ungrateful child/spoiled woman/impetuous person..but by writing it here, I'm half-hoping something else will come up and maudlot yung trip (I'm a believer in that kind of thing).
Oh well, let me eat dinner and sleep on it. Maybe tomorrow things will look better even if it means a deduction of 24 hours again on my time to prepare.
After all, tomorrow is another day. And no I will not ever speak of it again. I just need to concentrate on how to get it done. So there.
Hi Cat. Want ice cream?
ReplyDeleteBy the way, saan ba exactly ang location ng office mo?
ReplyDeletewhere? dito sa Manila? sa RSC, Ayala Ave ako nag -rereport coz its the nearest...I also go sometimes to SMPC (sa Ortigas) but rarely...and for TWS (sa Mckinley), although nagyayaya yung team na iba where I usually get invited if may outing, tamad ako..pangit and walang ayos na transportation..
ReplyDeleteAkala ko ba di ka as complicated as Marie. Ok, let me put it another way. Saan ko ba ipapa-deliver yung ice cream?
ReplyDeletestarting today, I am complicated :-(
ReplyDeleteimagine a gordian knot na di pwede ma-cut ni Alexander maski anong gawin nyang hampas sa sword nya...my mind, stomach and fingers are in knots..
*deep breaths* alam ko may solution nito...I just have to try my best...
thanks for the offer of the ice cream Chito...I think I will have dinner, not think of anytihng and tackle this problem tmrw :-) or else baka mawalan pa ako ng gana kumain ...which is a disaster if mangyari :-)
ReplyDeleteThat's not possible.
ReplyDeleteCat...hope you'll pass through this with honours! all the best..
ReplyDeletei am sure you will find a way...to feel good about this eventuality...to find your clone...hehehe!!
ReplyDeleteCat, if it's meant to be, it will be. Ano'ng malay mo, sa trip na ito mo mami-meet si papi charming.
ReplyDeleteIce cream makes everything better! Kaya lang may nag-offer na, so...um....hug? >:D< Hahaha
ReplyDeletethanks Nonz..scramble, scramble.hehehe
ReplyDeletebahala na si P.C. ;-) mas kailangan ko yung cram book...
ReplyDeletehaha...hug lang? hay nako, daming utang mo na sa bday mo ilang beses na di ako sinama para kumain..hmph...
ReplyDeleteSino si P.C.?
ReplyDeletesi Prince Charming...
ReplyDeleteor if I use your term...si papi charming...hehehe!
"di ka as complicated as Marie"
ReplyDeletebat nasali ako ditow?
ako rin pakideliver ng isang batyang ice cream sa fairview. pero sugar free please =) green tea flavor o kaya double dutch with lotsa cashew =) (laway laway laway)
hi cat. chillax. you'll figure it out. ikaw pa =) hang in there
ReplyDeleteCat, a few days have passed. Is the situation better?
ReplyDeletenope its not...I feel kind of in a puking mode...ok sana if wlang work but with the workload not letting up, I can't see how I can manage it...*glum but still with a speck of glee in my expression*
ReplyDeleteay, remember Marie that I came into contact with some Sugar Free peeps...as soon as I get my hands on the paper where they have their contact details I will post it here or PM you...
ReplyDeleteI was going to post it with pics nakuha ko this Sunday...yes, I took a break from the panic in my mind and deliberately went out to stroll, take pictures, visit the Legaspi Sunday Market, visit the Fabulous Finds Bazaar, visit the New Bombay resto and ordered (and finished) some good food..para lang medyo ma-up yung spirits ko..:-)
I doubt I can multiply as much as before, but I will peek once in a while to ease the boredom of reading some of my boring material which I have to wade through..
Saan sa Fairview?
ReplyDeletesa likod ng radio veritas. sugar free ha!
ReplyDeleteBahay ba o office? Anong address?
ReplyDeleteaba seryoso!!!! tito ireserve mo nalang yan sa muli nating pagkikita. kahit lusaw na kakainin ko pa rin ever =) hihihi
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